Long time no see, everyone! It’s been a month since my last post, which was also an example of a seriously outdated entry.
I kept saying that I’m coming back, but I actually have not written a post until now. This has been the longest break I took in the aniblogging scene. But some of you might not have felt my absence because I had been leaving comments here and there. To be honest, I have been slowing down on the comments, too. Anyway, sorry for the long wait. I’ll also be disclosing my ‘plans’ for this blog below.
But let’s follow the FIFO (first in, first out) rule–first things come first.
As the post title more than implies, my anime blog has been floating in the internet for a year now. WordPress notified me last 2nd of June about my first year anniversary with them. Aw. I was touched. For them to remember and remind me of something I myself had forgotten…
I mean, I thought I was meant to virtually celebrate this occasion on the anniversary of the first post I ever published here. However that is not how it works. From now on, I’ll leave it to WordPress to notify me of the next birthdays of this blog.
Speaking of anniversaries and anniversary posts, everyone seems to like some moment reflection on what has transpired within the past year (or few years) and how things have changed, etc etc.
Has anything changed in this blog? Or within me? It wouldn’t be a stretch to say “yes” to both questions.
I thought this blog would become big within a year–something that would have hundreds of visitors a day. I guess that was waaaaaay too ambitious of me, who doesn’t really write as much as the other bloggers around. And my some of my topics are too obscure for the search engines to pick up. But in the end, I’m quite content with this blog. A fourth of my blog views (so far) come from this post alone. You get the idea how unpopular this blog is, but I truly appreciate you all for reading my entries and dropping meaningful comments.
Ever since I entered the blogging scene, not only centered on anime, I often feel like I am always trying to construct my own thoughts in such a way that I could later share them on my blog(s). I still don’t speak English most of the time, but when I think I often do it in English. My vocabulary is not the most diverse and, in my opinion, my readers would not learn a lot of new words by reading my entries, but I somehow get the feeling that I’m improving in terms of examining myself and expressing my ideas.
All those months of just talking about things I’ve found in anime, music, and random life events–how possibly could I not grow in this aspect? But I’m aware that I still have much to improve upon.
By blogging, I have met many wonderful people across the globe. Simple exchanges could also lead to more meaningful discussions. I am always reminded of how little I know and how much there is so much more to learn–which is why I have this growing interest in reading. Before I took up blogging, I barely read anything. Sure, I read some books in the past. But that’s about it.
It’s like a domino effect: blogging > meeting various people > seeing their ideas and insights > wanting to know/read more > expressing my own thoughts > prompting reactions from peers. But what I found out is that it’s coming to a full, but never the same, circle. It’s a spiral of dominoes–stacking on top of one another–as time goes by. And that spiral never really comes to a full stop.
While I’m at it, I want to drop a shoutout to some of the people who inspire me with their works–Frog-kun (Fantastic Memes), ArriaCross (Fujinsei), Foxy Lady Ayame (the beautiful world), and Leslie (Zyrogate Faine). To a lot of other wonderful people on twitter and wordpress/aniblogosphere I have pleasant chats and discussions with and who have seen and responded to my ups (fangirl and celebratory tweets) and downs (rants and depressing tweets) even through this cyberspace: thank you.
Where will I, and the blog, go from here?
Unlike anything I have wrongly promised, there will be no sort of “regular schedule” of blogging. Rather, I will not be promising anything regarding my post schedule and content. I may end up writing only once a month or weekly. There could be a time when I may not even write anything at all, then suddenly come back as if the absence was no big deal.
To be honest, it would not be totally strange for me if my blog becomes inactive for a long time. Not that I want to stop blogging anytime soon. But that possibility is present, and I won’t be denying that.
Moreover, I already have in my mind some changes that I’m going to make in this blog. Hopefully these will not drastically affect what I already have here, most especially the cute community of readers and commenters who like the stuff I write out of my own amusement.
You may be wondering why I’m doing this. It’s nothing much, personally. Perhaps, it’s just that the reality of working life I’m soon to enter is slowly sinking in, and that I’m kind of losing a vision of the future where I would still be actively blogging and reading other people’s blogs. I may write and read from time to time, but it is inevitable that I will be using more of my free time to rest. The nature of my future jobs is industrial, ones which not only require a lot of mental energy but can be physically draining as well.
I’m also trying to expand my worldview and understand myself and the people around me better by trying to engage in other things like book reading and music appreciation (and if time and resources allow, music making), to name a few. For quite some time now, I am slowly realigning my activities to allow me to get exposed in other interests. It’s embarrassing for me to say that for several years the only thing I’ve been really, really interested in is anime, even though I don’t have a lot of borrowed insider knowledge. I figured it’s not too late to have a change in pace in life. You can say this is also my self-therapy for something that’s burdening me for a while now.
That said, I admit I still have many things I want to say about anime/manga that I’ve read/watched. The challenge lies in whether or not I will be able to pen the thoughts I’d try to weave in the midst of other real life occupations.
I’m sorry to disappoint you, but if I have to force myself to say something and post entries way beyond my real capacity, then it wouldn’t be enjoyable anymore. This is my realistic take on what I am most likely to do with my blog (and my life, by extension, because this blog has also been a significant part of my life within the past year).
This post has become longer than I had originally planned. I think I’ve said what I wanted to say, unless someone points out that I may be forgetting something. If you think I really am, leave a comment or drop an anonymous question.
Having re-read this whole thing, it does not sound like your usual anniversary post but… whatever.
Have a great day!